The "married " question

 I'm not the type of person who expresses my deep feelings today however I wanted to share a feeling I have towards that one question. What's the question you ask? It's the are you "married" question. The one where someone asks you " are you married"? Which you reply with "no".  Then they begin to ask you "Are you looking to get married"? "How old are you"? You don't want to wait too long. Or "Oh so are you in school"? In the Muslim community where I live most people my age are married with kids or the ones how aren't get asked this question on a daily. When you are my age and aren't married they think something is wrong with you. I don't understand why a man can be in his 30's and not married but when it's a woman she must have something wrong with her. Or she must be  very picky. Why can't I simple be waiting to I'm ready to be married and make that commitment. Marriage is a big step in life that's not something you simple jump into. Marriage is something your suppose to be committed to for the rest of your life. There are a lot of things that a person must have before they are ready and if I  don't have some of those things why look to get married. In the end the marriage will most likely end. It hurts every time someone ask me that question. I feel less like a young women and more like a little kid. You begin to question the way you have chosen to live your life. Now however I'm at the place where I get mad whenever I get asked this question. It's to the point where I just want to scream at the person who asked the question. I have to remind myself that this is Allah's plan for me and I have to except it and the ones around me have to except it. If it was meant for me to be married a long time ago say 16 then I would have been. So before you jump to ask the are you "married" question try to think about your Muslim sisters feelings and thoughts about the matter. I ask Allah to for give us if we have wronged one another with this matter.Amen I ask Allah to make the ones how are looking to get married journey easy for them.Amen Insha'Allah I will be back next week.

"Look up"

Look Up: http://youtu.be/Z7dLU6fk9QY

Update

I believe my last update a talked about how school was coming to an end and it has about a month ago. I'm trying to enjoy my time out of school before the next semester starts. I did very well last semester and Insha' Allah (god welling) I will do the same next semester. Guess what one of my sisters graduated from high-school! Its amazing how much time flys and everyday we need to try an get closer to where we need to be. Quran class is going well Alhamdulillaah. I don't remember the last time I wrote about it but its going well. Since I have been out of school I have been reading a lot and catching up on YouTube videos. I need to put more effort into Islamic studies I started out fine then it started to fall but I need to get back on it. I'm also trying to do cake related things more or baking in general. I want to make a hummingbird cake this week but we'll see what happens. Garden wise I planted carrot, lettuce, and a bell pepper plant in the ground. It was a new experience and I'm going to do a whole post on it. I think that's it for updates see you later  :)

Changes

So much has happened in the past couple months from school to life. I'm half way in to school and I'm doing OK. It could be better but it's better then last semester Alhamdulillaah(thank god). I have another test for anatomy and my first test for physical ed class this week. This week has been quite busy starting 2am Monday. 2 am you say? Yeah thats right 2 in the morning. My sister went into labor!! I watched my 2 niece's while she was at the hospital and the youngest was having such a hard time that morning. She did not go back to sleep when they got dropped off until almost 7. She cried so much that morning but by 5 am she was OK and she made it through the whole time. Having to watch them I didn't get much work done but that is OK because it was worth it. Anyway my sister had a ......... girl! Yes another girl Alhamdulillaah. Mash Allah she is so chubby and cute.  Still can't believe I'm an aunt to 4 gorgeous girls. My life keeps growing and growing and I'm very blessed. These are the moments that out weigh the bad. Even though moments maybe hard it's good take the the time to see the great things in life.

School went......

Hello again I have to stop writing post at crazy hours and post months apart. A lot has happened since the last time like always. The semester is over for me and I didn't do well in biology. I have one more semester to go in I will have completed 2 years of college. However I'm at a road were I need to be 100% sure I want to still be a nurse. I have a feeling of wanting to change and become a pastry chef but I still have a felling of wanting to be a nurse. Its hard not knowing what to do and I have to pray an ask Allah(God) to make it easy for me to decide. There so many possible chooses that I'm confused and only Allah(God) can make me unconfused.  If I decide to continue down the path to being a nurse I need to start studying for the exam. That's what I have to decide in the upcoming months. like always I have plans for my blog but I need to put it into action. I just wanted to give a life update since it been so long. Till next time : )

A New Age

I can't believe how fast time goes by. We are so caught up in everything that is going on around us that time is just another thing. We hardly take the time to stop and see the wonderfull things around us. Like the trees, birds, and even people. We are so ready to judge each other but we can't stop and thing of something better to do with are time. I'm not here to preach or jump on you. I'm here to share with you how I feel because today I turned 23. 23 years old and I can't believe it. I have the feeling of everything around me is changing and I'm slowly seeing it happen. Its like everything move at fast speed and I just standing there as it goes by. I want and need to take the time to enjoy life while I'm still here because no one is promised tomorrow or the next second. Now I'm going to share with you some of my goals for myself.

My goals:

1. Get my drive license

2. Read books on my long list of books I want to read

3. Study my religion more

4. Learn a way to study a & p that works best for me

And the last one I will like to share is:

5. BElIEVE IN MYSELF! And don't let others influence the way I think and what I feel.

Here are some  pictures of a squirrel I took last week. I swear he was posing for the camera.

Update

Good morning and how are all of you today?I decided I wanted to do a post more like i need to do a post. So update will have to do today as I have no sweets, book review, or crafts to share. This semester is almost done so I'm a busy bee(when am I not?). So here is a breakdown of what has been going on.

Study plan:

Trying to find a good study plan is hard. I use flash cards, I tried any outline, and many other things but I just can't seem to find one that works for me. I have been searching on the web of ways to study and still have not came across the one that helps me. I have a list of things I need it to help with; remembering medical terms, how the body works and other anatomy things. If any of you have tips I'll love to hear it.

Quran class:

I have been doing quran class for some time now. It is a great class to attend as it will help me get closer to Allah(god) but I am so busy that I learn my lesson right before class. I need to find a way to fit it in to my busy schedule.

Baking:

I have not baked since Eid except to bake bread for dinner. I miss baking its so claiming and relaxing to me. Again I need to find a way to fit it in because I have so many things I want to try. I hate the fact that I have not practiced my cake decorating tools I learned and I don't want to lose it. You know the saying "use it or lose it".

House:

All the things around me seem to be so busy that everything is ever where. If you know me and my mom you know we love to clean and have things organized. The house needs a major purge.

Life:

Everything and everyone is changing; Some ways good and other ways not so much. My siblings are growing up 1 of my sisters will be finish with high school this year. Time is going by so fast.my older sister is having her 3rd baby early next year(inshallah). So many other big changes will be happening.AlamaduAllah life is good.

Health:

I don't recall if I wrote about my dad having a heart attack. AlamadAllah he is alive and well. My mom a while back went to the hospital and she has a problem with her hand. So she has been able to work. She can still do things just not like she use to. My health as far as I know is OK. The family is eating healther(we ate pretty healthy) and are trying to exercise more.

Anyways that's what has been going on with me. Let me know how life is going for you. Till next time take care.